I recently did one of those online tests. Answer a few questions and get your score.
This particular test was "How autistic are you?". The average score is 15 for Women, and 17 for Men. Or was that 13 for Women and 15 for Men. Aspergers would be about 31. High functioning autism about 35.
I scored 27, which doesn't surprise me at all. I've never been particularly comfortable in social situations. I tend to be obsessive about things - Like collecting the letters of the alphabet from photographs of the earth's surface for example! - And although I'm clever, I find it difficult to articulate my ideas.
So I'm happy to apply the label, "A bit autistic" to myself. That's not why this post is about being messed up.
I think I'm also rather depressed at the moment. Just generally got a bit of a black cloud over my thoughts. Nothing major. Just a constant dark filter that's affecting the way I think and feel.
The reasons for this, if there are any, are too complex to go into right now as it's very late and I have to work in a few hours. But just thought I'd share, y'know.