Saturday, 29 August 2015

Mike+1

It's exactly one year since Mike took his own life. Almost to the minute as I write this.

Today I will be working to arrange a surprise party for Bren's 60'th birthday. She knows we're doing something but doesn't know the specifics.

We have not been back to the burial site since his funeral. Bren's way of dealing with it, and my way of respecting her wishes.

It's hard to think about but the physicality of death comes into my mind every time I think about Mike.

What's left of him now?

Life is about consciousness. The body is just a chalice, or a cage. If you're not thinking, you're not living, although there are potatoes that might disagree.

He died, and what there was of him went from something to nothing, or something to something else, if you believe that there is something after something.

Yet I dwell upon the physical realities. Is he just bones yet? He didn't have a lot of hair. I don't know about his pubes. What else is there? Fingernails teeth and toenails I suppose. Those already partially mineralised bits of us.

People that believe in the hereafter don't believe that an afterlife  prevents decomposition. We Transcend.

I bought her some flowers this evening. Not because of Mike. Because she's got restless legs, and she can't get to sleep at night, and is so utterly tired and worn out all the time.

We're getting old. She more than me. And I love her. And I want somehow to make life better for her if I can.

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Friday, 21 August 2015

Not just the lesser of two evils...

As I joined the Greens a few months back, I didn't register to vote in the Labour Leadership elections. If I hadn't been in that situation, I would have registered, and I would certainly have voted for Jeremy Corbyn.

The reasons for voting for Jeremy Corbyn are expressed extensively elsewhere. This is one of the best of the things I've read...

http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2015/aug/18/jeremy-corbyn-rivals-chase-impossible-dream

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Sunday, 9 August 2015

scientifically incorrect lyrics II

This...


...is a rainbow.

They always appear at the anti-solar point, so everyone get's their own personal one.

As everyone knows, the colours are in the following order:

Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Indigo, Violet. ROYGBIV.

Richard Of York Gave Battle In Vain.

I can sing a rainbow. It just doesn't scan very well. The same couldn't be said however, for Arthur Hamilton, who could sing a list of colours that were in the wrong order and included colours that are not present in rainbows.

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Thursday, 6 August 2015

70 years on...


Reslilient fuckers, aren't we?

Back in 2004, almost a quarter of a million people lost their lives in the Boxing Day earthquake and Tsunami.

It took less than three days for the global human population figure to recover.


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Tuesday, 28 July 2015

dust in the wind

my mum has cancer.

encapsulated ovarian cancer in at least one ovary.

she will be having both ovaries surgically removed in the very near future.

more than that I do not know right now.

worrying times.

it looks like it has not spread beyond her ovary(ies) but it's too early to say for sure yet if the surgery will suffice to give her the all clear.

my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer a couple of years ago, and underwent various treatments including radiotherapy and HRT to shrink the prostate gland. He responded well, and is doing fine.

Bren now has diabetes, anaemia, fibromyalgia and restless leg syndrome. she's on so many pills, she rattles when she walks.

every fucker is falling to bits, including me, although I have been eating a lot more healthily recently.

once upon a time I was young, and there were two generations between me and old age. now it's only a matter of months or a few scant years before I start losing those closest to me.

this, I'm aware, is an entirely selfish perspective, and of course things are exactly the way they're supposed to be, but still...

holy fuck.

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